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what do you do when you feel like your time is runing out or when you have no place left to hide?.... sometimes thats how i feel i feel like i should be hiding im tiered of all the things that are in my head they are stupid to think about ut yet they stay and piss me off i wish i could talk about them to someone but i fear that they will get the wrong impression or not understand which is fine i can do this on my own im used to it but its so fucking irritating but anyhoo just some useless venting

what a load of shit i have sat here for the past two weeks rackn my brains about so much and i have no fuckin idea on how to feel,think or be i know in the end things wil most likey be fine but my patience for somethings are running very low and almost non exsistant but i wil sit and wait and decide what to do about all this stupid ass bullshit until then i will just be numb

wow i leave on thursday i cant belive how soon it is lol and i feel like im running around like a chicken with my head cut off but its all good ill be much happier once i see my mate and a few others but i want him first lol he made me feel sad tonight but i know he will be ok it will take some time but hes strong and i know he will be fine but anyhoo... draven has gained more weight hes 8 lbs and 6 oz hes been eating alot more and hes getting big he looks different and it just amazes me how fast he has changed well i think im gonna go to bed ill write more tomorrow im sure